A New Mouse

the new layout is likeable.

sometimes all the ahem and ahem just aint enough.
and.
sometimes.

everything is a fucking lie.
fuck the special. pffft.
or at least its what i asked f to remind me to blog down at this.
moment before i forget.
then again.

sometimes when salt is rubbed into wounds.
without prior knowledge a wound exists.
is it a crime? or is ignorance forgiveable.
or maybe its apathy. then again. mebbe its better off not having him remind me.
but its my conscious choice.

so much for intuition.
juz got back from cabana with f.s.d.and me.also a d.
millions of d's.
pffft.
baring more than i should again.
then again.
its somehow the way i try to discover people that can accept me the way.
i am.
i am me.
so just let things be.

the moments of silence.
when the right songs hit.
and the sadness sometimes. looking back at how things turn out.
and how ignorant people can be when they're so close.
and how intuitive they can be when they're so far away.
its juz. funny how things work out.
im realli beat. and comtemplating whether i should be at marketing tomorrow.
not for fish and vegetables but lessons.
it hurts.

but. i made friends tonight.

off to the showers and the bed.

signing off.

D