talked to dad in the car todae.
had my reunion dinner todae.
people are. well. transient.
transitory.
then again. its all abt.interests.
sis was asking me about being popular.
and its been an issue im ever so familiar with.
cept.
im becoming more attuned to the words of the older me.
phases.
touch and go.
and in the end.
i rather be home. surrounded by. things permanent.
not surprising.
ive always detested things unreal.
and always inclined to drop anchor somewhere.
in juz about everything i do.
its not abt being static.
death of ambition equates to the death of soul
which simply means ure better off dead already.
its abt being at ease where u can let down your hair.
and ease some bones.
unguarded.
its one of those rare chances i get to talk to him man to man.
its pretty nice.
ive known him yet ive never known him.
hopefully the remaining years ahead are well spent with him.
im miniature beside him.
in fact we're totally different pragmatics.
at least.
not in the way we define "right" on a number of issues.
yet. hes juz abt the onli other beacon of success and morals. thats made it.
in this cloud.
tis dark cloud. im still learning.
mum's craziness grows by the years.
its infectious.
everyones growing by the years.
its a unfamiliar familiarity within each of us.
mebbe i wont be the son that they envisioned me to be.
but they'll always be the parents that im proud of.
and that. in my lil ways. make them.
proud. of me.
so the new year has come. well. the chinese new year.
at least.
hopefully phlegmatism will take a backseat.
and.
this time.
i'll take the frontseat.
*honk honk*
signing off
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