and it was 2am

as the title reads.
it was til 2 am.
and its like a burden off the shoulders.
its just amazing how the people you're trying to build up.
build you up nearly instantaneously.
and the Shulamite sure had her walk going for her.
and that goes for us too.

every plant needs watering sometimes.
and it just stretches to provide shelter and shade.
and has forgotten to deepen its roots in search.
of much more from the spring that gives it life.

its realli not for them.
but for myself that somethings gotta give.
wherever it is.
let there be open doors and let me hear Your voice again.
i am humbled.
i am contrite.
i am broken. falling apart and barely breathing.
but im holding on. barely holding on to You.

but i will not hide in the clefts of the Rock.
neither will i stay within the 4 walls.
so i plead you to take me away.
like a gazelle over mountains.
for one day in Your house is better than a thousand days.
elsewhere.

fill me with an outpouring i cannot fathom.
a peace that surpasses all understanding.
and restore in me that love.
that once was. that once was given.
that once was dried up.
that wants to be rekindled again.

lovely are your dwelling places.
and i ask for more of You and less of me.
so take me from the doors.
to the outer courts.
and into the chambers.
take this cup away from me.
but let Thy will be done.
Move in your power, open the Heavens, Lord today.

Take all of me.
take these chains away and set me free.
for You, and only You can save a wretch like me.
With Your, Amazing Grace.

Instill in me that spirit of excellence again.
that has parted silently.
it crept away in the 3rd year.
and things were never the same.

i seek a open door.
to clean the slate.
and may Your forgiveness come upon.
and we'll catch the lil foxes and mature foxes together.
that the vineyard.
will not have its fruits trampled upon.
again.

Hallelujah~!

signing off.